Life is so funny sometimes. It's cruel and doesn't care whether or not certain events will kill you or knock you down. It doesn't care. It just happens. Days just go by and we are just watching the show of our lives. Sometimes we live the show but sometimes I think we just watch the show... maybe so that we don't get hurt.
My little sister who just got married in January (YES, of this year!) just called to announce she is PG. I am in shock and am actually a bit disgusted. I would never tell her this of course but that's how I feel. She is 24 and he is 29. He has had 2 kids from 2 different women and in the little time that they have been married, they have split up, fought, he kicked her out of the apt, etc. Just a mess so far!! She calls me all the time about how unhappy she is and how she thinks they had made a mistake. I try to give her advice and encourage her.
I always did warn her about getting PG. She has always been irregular but still.. you just never know. I told her to be careful. They weren't even sure if they were going to be together and here they are with a bun in oven. Of course she had no clue she was even PG and found out at the docs office after a UTI.
I am in shock and don't even know what to say. I try to play it cool but I of course I am HEATED. Life is just so unfair. It's just cruel. It doesn't care who it hurts.
My sister is the last person I imagine as a mom. I am sure that will change though once she has her baby but it's just so weird to imagine her in that way.
Oh God, I just can't believe this. I wanted to give my parents the first grandchild and have been working damn hard to do so. All she had to do was have sex. This is just great.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
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I've felt that major sense of injustice before when it comes to who gets IF and who gets pg accidentally, so I know how you feel. It has to be very hard considering that it's your sister too...anyways, you are pregnant until proven otherwise right now, so don't lose heart! And you might have cousins that are only a few weeks apart, which is very cool :)
Feel free to vent, be sad, be angry, be frustrated, or feel however you do. You've been through a lot, and it makes sense that you would feel all of those things right now. However, also remember that you have two beautiful babies growing inside of you, and try to focus on that amazing miracle. I really feel like this FET will bring you your perfect baby (or babies :-))
Stay strong!!
Thank you girls for being so positive for me!!! I am truly terrified that this will be negative (although I feel PG) and that this will affect me more than I can imagine. Then I think of how I wouldn't be worried about it (sister) if my baby wouldn't have died. Its just all so hard right now. I told myself to not let this take my hope away and to focus on MY babies and nothing else. They deserve for me to believe in them.
Thanks again girls.. I am crying at your words... :)
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