I haven't written in a while and I have so much on my mind.

AGAIN, I am freaked out! I just keep wondering if my babys' heart is beating in there or not. (it should be since I am 7 weeks now) I just keep thinking about it and with the holidays it wasn't so bad but now that Christmas is over, I am left with nothing to do and I end up thinking. I am trying to find an outside company that will do u/s on the side just to see the baby. I even thought of going in to the emergancy room!!!! Thats how desperate I am... My u/s isn't until the 8th and I just can't see myself waiting so long. I just pray and pray that the baby is doing perfectly fine in there.
My symptoms are still here but now I have come up with another thought. I think all of my symptoms are from the PIO I am taking. I wonder if I stop the PIO (which I can't as my progesterone is too low) would my symptoms go away? Its just crazy. I just wish I was out of the 1st trimester...
I don't feel as hungry anymore, I don't feel as tired anymore and have actually stayed up alot this week. I know I am sooo paranoid and I should stop but I can't help it!!!


On another note, Christmas was good. Really good. I got some awesome gifts and spent alot of time with family. It was great!!! I was off for 5 days in a row so that was the BEST part!!! hehe The days went by pretty fast though. I am off again this Monday so hopefully time will go by fast this week!!!

So I can breathe again!!!!!! There is only 1 in there and he/she is measuring right on!!! I am 5w6d and my scan said he/she measures 5w5d so our RE said it was perfect! We saw the fetal pole and yolk sac. We didn't get to see a heartbeat yet and I knew that we probably wouldn't but by next u/s we should!!! Dr. Dunn was very happy for us and told me to relax and to keep doing a good job.

I cried the whole way over there. All day I had such a nervousness in me that by the time I was home I was just a ball of emotions. I cried the whole 45 minutes there... Then I cried while the tech did the u/s. I was just so afraid that the screen was empty and that she wouldn't be able to find the little one. I layed there with hot tears running down my face looking away from Aaron as I didn't want to see what faces he was making. I worried because she took alot of pics and I thought for sure she was looking and looking but couldn't find anything.
She isn't allowed to talk to us about the results which made it HARDER so once we went to the waiting area to wait for Dr. Dunn I started to CRY again. I was just leaning on Aaron's shoulder when Dr. D came. He saw that I was crying and asked if I was nervous... I just laughed and said yes. Then as we were walking in to his office he said it was GOOD. HOOORAY, I felt in my soul!!! He explained everything to us and asked our questions. It was just heaven to hear it!!!

I CAN BREATHE AGAIN! I go back on the 8th because they are closed for the holidays. I should hear a heartbeat by then.

I have 20 minutes until I get off... I will go home and rest for a little, get dressed and head off to the RE with Aaron. My God, I am so nervous. I just have a funky feeling and I am stressing big time. I feel like crying, I feel like hiding away and I am already thinking what I am going to do if I get bad news? What will I do for Christmas?

Why am I doing this to myself? Why am I so worried? Is it a sign? Is it my instincts telling me the baby is not there anymore? Why can't this be easy? I read about other moms and they are already planning whether or not they are finding out the sex!!! I am still thinking of getting to 6 weeks (tomorrow) then 7, 8, 9, etc...

I am set that I trust God though. I know that even though my mind is going crazy right now, I trust in the Lord. I have from the beginning. I know He will come through for me... I don't know what that means, but I know He will.

OH GOD!!

I will post once I get back. We are supposed to go out and celebrate so I should be home later on...

We are now 5 1/2 hours away!! My appt is not until 2 pm and I wish I was at home sleeping so the time wouldn't go by so slow. My stomach is in knotts and my mind is racing. I know that I have been positive but I am just scared. I am scared that the baby died or that there is no baby in there. I am so scared. I have been praying and hoping and just want good news. I have no reason to believe that I have lost the baby but then again I wouldn't have one. THats what keeps going through my mind! I am on progesterone so that would keep AF away. My boobs hurt, yes, but that is the progesterone. My temps are high, yes, but again progesterone. I just have an excuse for everything! I am hungrier but that could just be me.

This is just so nervewracking. I don't even feel like going in to the u/s!! I just want good news...

24 hours to go... It's 2:05 pm right now. I just got butterflies in my stomach and my heart is beating harder. I can't help but to wonder what is going to happen tomorrow. I know its a vaginal u/s and that I have to go with my bladder empty but I just wonder what happens. The tech will be doing the u/s which means that she can't talk about the results with me. How is that possible? How will I know if I have a heartbeat or not or where the sac is or the fetal pole? My nurse said that we would see Dr. Dunn right afterwards but still. I would like to have everything on the screen explained to us. I am sure it will go good though but I am still worried. Will this worrying ever stop? I don't think so. I am now a mother. :) I guess it helps me understand my mom more.
My mom was so sweet today too. She was telling me all about what she has been reading on PG and what I should do. She was asking me how I feel and asking me about m/s and my boobs! LOL I guess everyone is surprised when I say that I feel good. I don't feel nauseaus yet and everyone seems to expect that.

The day is getting closer and I must admit that I am nervous. I have had a "good" feeling since starting the cycle but now as I get closer to see if my baby is growing and doing good, my heart starts beating faster and I can't concentrate or anything else.. So I have been trying to avoid the thoughts and just wait patiently. So far its worked as I am only 2 days away now! I just pray that we will get good news and that we will get to see at least a faint little brand new heartbeat. I have become more adjusted to the idea of a singleton. Aaron says he thinks there is only one in there... My betas seem to be normal high but not too high. My symptoms are minimal and although you can't base that on trying to figure out if its one or two, I pretty much gave into the singleton thought. I really don't care if its one or two, as long as I have one. Well, let me rephrase that... I have become attached to both of them. I saw them both and so they grew on me. Up until beta, I referred to them as "them". Now I say "baby". But I just want a healthy bean or two in there... By the way, I am ready to zonk out right now!!!
Anyway, my "symptoms" haven't gotten any worse. I am still sleepy and tired but thats it! I have no morning sickness whatsoever! I sort of wish I did though just to feel pregnant. My boobs hurt but I say its the progesterone. I am peeing alot still so thats another good sign.

Well its still 2 days away :) so I guess I will go back to waiting...

I thought I would drop in and talk. The obsession never seems to stop right? First it was IVF, retrieval, transfer, then PG tests, then BETA, and now 1st u/s. All these subjects are on my internet browser since I obsess with each step of the way. I guess it's normal.
Since I am on progesterone in oil, my symptoms could be that or real PG symptoms. I am not sure... But so far I am feeling TIRED and all the time! Today I actually feel good. I just feel like I am walking around in a daze. Last night I felt off. I look "off". I really need to relax more though. I have a Christmas program coming up this weekend so it has me on my feet but I am feeling like I need to rest. That is my plan for tonight! Tomorrow we are having a dinner banquet so no rest tomorrow.
Another symptom is hunger! I am hungry almost all the time. I eat then my food goes down, and then 2-3 hours later my stomach starts tugging again. This morning I ate chili for breakfast. It was GOOD. I also ate an apple and some goldfish. Its 11:30 and I feel like I am starving again.
I have also been having dizzy spells every now and then. All of a sudden I will feel the room spin and I just sit still and let it pass. Those are weird and I am sure people can tell as I sit there looking pale and in a daze.
What else.. hmmm. I guess that's it. NO morning sickness yet!! I feel good besides the fatigue so thats always awesome. Of course, I wouldn't mind m/s as long as the baby is doing good.
Oh and I pee alot and I get hot really quick. I was giving my testimony at church this Sunday and I was sweating bullets! I am talking about just sweat pouring down my face. It was hot in there but the nerves plus all the hormones made me a sweaty pig! Not attractive...
But who cares, right? I am just happy to have a little baby in there. I bought an Equate test last night. I hadn't tested since Sunday. The line was DARK purple. It was nice to see just for reassurance.
So my u/s is on 12/20. It seems far away but its only a week from today. I have to admit that I am nervous. I am just scared of miscarrying. On FF when I see the siggies of the women who had miscarriages they have the week the baby was when they miscarried. Some say 8 or 9 weeks. Some even say 10 weeks. Some say early like 5 or 6 weeks. Its just scary that I am so early and that I am still so far away from being safe... I just pray and pray that everything turns out good and that I will carry this baby to term. No miscarriage, no early labor, no stillbirth, nothing like that. Aaron is praying too so hopefully our prayers together (where 2 or 3 agree) will be heard.

2nd beta was today!! I just got my results....

664!!!

Progesterone was 23.7 so I stay on the shots... I am kind of relieved to here that as I was worried they were taking me off too soon. Plus my mom had several miscarriages and we just want to be careful..

WOOHOO!!! My beta is doing GOOD!! I have my u/s for 12/20/06!!

Where are you Christmas Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play
My world is changing, I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too, Where are you Christmas
Do you remember, The one you used to know
I'm not the same one, See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go
Christmas is here, Everywhere,
ohChristmas is here
If you care,
ohIf there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas ,I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas, Stays here in silence
Fills each and every heart with love
Where are you Christmas
Fills your heart with love

(Where are you Christmas- song by Faith Hill)





I used to hear this song and get so sad. Every year during the holidays I had a hard lump in my throat. A sadness and emptiness in my heart. This Christmas is filled with joy and happiness but I haven't forgotten the pain. It still hurts. I really hope I get to hold this baby (ies) in my arms next year in Aug.

So I went and did my beta today. I woke up early and just layed there thinking. I was excited but nervous! I have still been testing so HPTs are getting darker and darker still but the BETA is the "ONE" test.
So come around noon my nurse calls. She told me that she knew I had cheated (I had told her earlier this week) but CONGRAGULATIONs anyway... She said to keep taking the PIO and baby aspirin and that I will come in on Monday again for a repeat beta to make sure my numbers are going up. Oh duh! My number was :


185!!!

Yippeee! She said that it was a very good number and that she would guess its only 1 in there. I told her I didn't care as long as there was 1! Aaron is happy, my mom is happy and I am happy! WOohoo!!

Okay, so I couldn't keep it in but to my defense neither could Aaron!!!! We told!!! We still did what we were going to do for Christmas but instead we took them to dinner and then gave them their "early" Christmas gifts. It was my mom, dad, and one of my sisters. My other sister couldn't make as she was working but I would later get a hold of her. So we ate and boy was that dinner LOOONG. I ate so fast but my parents were slow. My heart was beating hard and fast as me and Aaron caught glances at each other. Every now and then we would giggle without them noticing. So finally they finished and we were just talking. Then Aaron said that we brought them out to give them some early Christmas presents. They looked a bit confused. So I had wrapped all their gifts up and he passed them out. We decided that we would give them gifts that were associated with their roles such as "grandma" or "grandpa". So for my mom we got her some spanish chocolate bars that are used to make hot chocolate (which is SO good by the way). The chocolate is called "Abuelita" chocolate. "Abuelita" means grandmother in spanish. For my dad we found some natural soap by the brand of "Grandpa's". It was an acne soap! For my sister that was there we got her a pack of flour tortillas called "Tia Rosa" which "Tia" means Aunt in spanish. And for my little sister we got her a bottle of Aunt Jemima syrup!!! So Aaron gave it to them and they unwrapped them. It was sooo funny because they didn't get it!! My sister said "TORTILLAS???" (she really thought she was getting a good present..hehe) She said "is this a joke?". Then my mom was looking at her chocolate so confused. She just said "chocolate?". Later she told me she thought I wanted her to make me some chocolate.. lol My dad took the longest to open his and Aaron helped him yank off the paper. He said "Grandpa's soap" (reading the label). My mom read it and said that my dad didn't have acne... too funny! So we kept quiet and then I *think* my dad kind of got it because he looked at his then my moms. He told my mom "look what they are trying to tell you... grandma, grandpa". Then my sister said "Tia, Grandma, Grandpa!! AWWWW!!!! Your PG!" My mom asked me "Are you pregnant???" I said "YES!!!" So I started to cry ALOT. I looked at my mom and dad and my mom was teary eyed and my dad was CRYING. It was soo sweet. He just stared at me and asked "really?" I just nodded. It was perfect!!!! Then they congragulated us and my sister hugged me! It was a night I will never forget. My other sister finally got there and we gave her her gift. She asked "SYRUP??" She said "what are you trying to tell me?" So then my other sis grabbed all their other gifts and showed them to her. And she finally got it!! She asked "are you having a baby?" I said "yup". She hugged me and was so happy. Its really neat to see them so happy with me. I know already that our child(ren) are loved so much already.
Once we left we went over to my cousins house as I knew a bunch of people were over there. Some of our closest friends from church were over there and plus I am really really close to my cousin. So I acted like nothing and then I told her I wanted to take a picture of her family in front of their house for Christmas. Her husband was all grouchy because he was cold but I begged him. So it was them and their 2 girls. I had the camera and I told them that instead of saying cheese say "Diana" so they obediently repeated. Then I said "IS PREGNANT!" I snapped the picture right after I said that! It was too funny! I got the picture of my cousin and one of her girls with their mouth wide open SCREAMING. Its a GREAT pic for the scrapbook!! Hehe...
So tonight we are telling my grandma and my mother in law. Its sooo exciting!!! We are just so happy and so cheerful right now.
I tested again last night and it was DARKER. Everyday my first response tests get darker and darker.. Soon they will be as dark as the control line. Today I am 4 weeks exactly or 14 dpo!!! I am feeling sleepy, and sluggish. I am starting to get headaches. And I seem to be hungry alot but once I eat I get full really quick. I weighed myself this morning since I didn't weight myself during IVF because I knew I had gained some weight from all the bloating. Well I weighed in at the same if not 2-3 lbs lighter. SO I am glad to be back to my normal weight. Right now, I could just zonk out and probably will during lunch... *yawn*

The good thing so far is no nausea! Yeah! I hate being sick to my stomach because I hardly every am. I haven't thrown up in years (like way over 5 years!!!) so when I feel sick its horrible. I don't puke easily so that is good. Well the things I have noticed so far (but could totally be the progesterone shots) are the dreams, very vivid dreams every night since about 5 days ago. Every morning I wake up thinking that my dream was real. The other funny thing is that my mind is off. I am not sure what is going on. I thought it was funny the other day (before BFP) and I even mentioned it to Aaron that I must be pregnant because I had the PG brain. I was cleaning my stove and usually I clean it with the orange degreaser stuff. Well I go under the sink and grab a bottle. When I realized what I was doing I was like "what in the world?". I was degreasing the stove with Windex. I must say that it made it really shiney though! lol Then the other day I took a shower. I came out and was drying my hair and realized that I had forgotten to wash my body!! DUH!!! At walmart (during my psycho 2ww woman phase) I forgot my debit card to buy my PG tests so I only bought one with the emergency credit card. It didn't even phase me that I could write a check. And last but not least I am here at work right now and I had a juvenile waiting for his probation office for 30 minutes!!! I totally forgot he was here. I am just in la la land...

We got it!!! I have now changed over to the PG side and its official for us BOTH!! I am pregnant! I am pregnant!! I am pregnant!!! Merry Christmas to me!!!
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So even though I am sure I am PG I still haven't changed my tickers, I still haven't officially announced it on FF except in a very small IVF group I am in. Tonight, I plan to take a digital test. That will for sure make me change my ticker!!! Aaron really really wants to see the digital so I thought I would just give in to him. :) He keeps calling me "mommy" and asking me how I feel everytime he calls. Its so sweet! He even brought me lunch today which was a salmon patty (PG safe, so I read), mashed potatoes and nasty nasty spinach! YUCK. I usually like spinach but this tasted like out of the can spinach. Gross. But he said I NEEDED to eat it!! So I managed to eat some....

So I will update with a HOPEFULLY ++ digital tonight!!

Monday morning. Blech. Aaron is home all warm in our bed. WAAAA! But I gotta say that THIS Monday isn't bad at all. I woke up this morning wishing I could call in but at the same time I was excited to get up! I AM PREGNANT! That is a reason to suck it up and get up. I am just so happy and feeling so blessed.
The funny thing is, I always imagined getting my bfp and crying and falling on my knees from all the emotion that would take over me. But when I got my bfp on 9 dpo (yes, it was that early!!... I told ya that was a line... I am sure you thought I was crazy!) the first thing that popped out of my mouth was "Oh sh*t". First of all, I don't cuss. That is not part of my language but as I saw the really really light line I couldn't find words. I picked it up and looked at it under the light (I was in our bathroom) and I remember my hand was shaking. I didn't cry but I was just in total shock. I just couldn't believe it. I quickly ran (THERE GOES THE SURPRISE I WAS PLANNING FOR AARON) over to Aaron who was in office, who didn't even know I was testing let alone that I had tests. I am freaking out and show it him and he can't see it. *mad* WHAT? Its there!! "OH yeah, I can see it, its light, really light". So we went back and forth and I just knew it in my heart that it was a BFP. Again, I didn't cry. I was just smiling and in disbelief.
I am thanking God over and over of course. He deserves all the glory in my journey. Here I am PG after IVF which first of all I didn't want to do, then when I thought I could, there was no way we could pay for it right now and we had no insurance coverage. Now I sit here PG after going through IVF and paying maybe a total of $300 for the procedure and $82 for meds. Our specific cycle (IVF with ICSI and Assisting Hatching) probably costs about close to $20,000 with the meds!!! How can I NOT give Him the GLORY??? And then for it to work??? The first time??? Its just a miracle!!
Shots out to my doc too! Dr. Dunn you are our hero! I will never forget how confident he was when we went in for our ivf consultation. I actually thought he was smoking crack because HELLO??? How can you be so sure and confident?? We have not one issue but 2?? He really did fluff my head up to believe, maybe this can work- the first time. He told me I was his favorite type of patient. I was young, healthy and had a very high success rate. The only thing that could be wrong might be the PCOS and MFI and after that, maybe all would be perfect. It turns out he was right. I can't wait to tell him we are PG! On the day of my transfer, again, I thought he was smoking crack. He was just so darn happy and excited! I do have to say that after our initial meeting with him, I did feel confident in the care we would recieve. I felt that he cared and that he was a smart, professional man that we could trust. (I still thought he smoked crack though! j/k) And he was. He knew exactly what "cocktail" to give me to respond perfectly and I have even managed to NOT get ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome!! WOOOHOOOOO!!! Thats our smart Dr. Dunn!!!

Now the focus and prayer is that this baby or babies are kept inside of me for the rest of the 8 months. I pray that I will not encounter miscarriage or any threat of that sort. I feel confident as I know that God has been with me. I know this was all God in my situation. So I feel confident that HE WILL finish this work in me. But just to be on the safe side, Aaron and I are praying and praying that our child(ren) will be in perfect health and that they will stay warm and cozy inside their mommy. (ahhh, I can't believe I am a MOMMY!!!!)
So the hardest part of this is not telling anybody. I did tell ONE friend of mine last night but I made her swear not to say anything to anybody! Aaron gave me "permission" to tell her as I told him I would make her promise me. She did tell her husband (I told her she could) and they were delighted for us. She knew we were going through IVF so she was in prayer for us as well. Well the reason why we aren't telling anybody isn't because we are scared of miscarriage because again, I am confident in God that this is going to work out, but the reason is that me and Aaron had already talked about how we would tell everyone. CHRISTMAS!!! How perfect and what not better gift to my parents than the news that their first grand child(ren) are coming!!! My mom has been patiently waiting and praying as my dad and I feel so happy to finally give them that gift. This will be one of my favorite Christmas's ever!!! I have 3 weeks to hold it in and right now its easy as it still hasn't sunk in all the way with me but in about a week or so, its going to be hard... Aaron made me promise though and I know that if we waited to tell them it would be special!!!!!!

So I think that I am PG. I believe it now!!! I have taken about 6 tests in the course of 2 days and my lines are getting darker!!!!! I don't even have to squint!!! I am in heaven right now and don't know what to do with myself! Aaron is in disbelief I think.. He just turns red and gets a HUGE smile on his face!!!!!!!

Here are my recent ones...

So what does a crazy 2ww woman do at 5:30 in the morning?????? GO TO WALMART, thats what!!! I took my last test this morning, after I said I wouldn't do first morning urine and was going to wait the 24 hours and test in the evening. Well I got a second line again but it wasn't any darker. Maybe just a tad. Okay, not bad. I still have a line though. So the crazy psycho came out and I decided to get another test! NOW!!!! I was going to buy a kit, seriously like the 2-3 packs of 3 different brands (haha what would the cashier think??) but then I realized I forgot my darn debit card!!! GRRRRRRRRRRR!! OMG, I just remembered...duh, I could write a check!! DUH!! (Well that was dumb...) Well anyway, I didn't even think of writing a check but I did have my "for emergency only" credit card and decided this was an emergency!!!! So I just bought one single lonely test :( and some applejuice (I tried to get creative so the cashier wouldn't realize I had a PG test, do you think she noticed??). I decided to get an Equate as I have never ever ever gotten a BFP on those!! NEVER!!
So I am driving home asap, I passed up a red light (hey, nobody was looking!) and finally arrived at my destination - the cup with the fresh first morning urine! Took the test, looked at it in 3 minutes and YES PEOPLE, I HAVE ANOTHER LINE!!! LIGHT, BUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I promise, I will stack up on some tonight!!! Many brands, many kits!!

I have been testing since thursday.. I know BAD ME! But i wan't to check to make sure the ovidrel was out. well I got a bfn on target brand on thursday then yesterday i got a bfn on first response...the same time as the night before. well i just took another first response (darn 3 pack!!!) and lo and behold I have a very very very light line. it came up at around 2-3 minutes and its pink!!!!!!!! i am soo freaking out i don't even know what to do. i am being very cautious of course since its so early and the light is so line. i hope it is still there tomorrow! i can't even type right!! OMG!! OMG!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! here is the test. you might not be able to see it but i saw it, i swear!!!

I thought it might be wise to come here and think out loud. For some reason, I looked at my calendar and I am a week away from beta. It makes my stomach turn into knots just thinking about it. I am trying not to get anxious or panicky because I know that is not good for me or the possible growing babies inside of me but how can you help yourself not to??? This 2ww is torture!!! I did test last night because I wanted to see if trigger was out yet and from what it looks like, it is. I had a very very light line after the time limit so I still count it as a negative. That is good! I am 10 days past trigger so that means any bfp I get should be real now. I am not sure if I will test before beta. One moment I want to, and the other I don't. I am taking the whole day off though since I have to go in the morning and then they will call me some time in the afternoon (there goes the knot in the tummy feeling again!). Aaron is also staying home with me. I figure we are going to either celebrate like crazy or I will have a break down, seriously.
I have been having very very vivid dreams for about 3 days now. The first one was a sex dream.... Weird, I know... then yesterday I don't remember what it was but I woke up thinking it was real. Today I woke up and I had dreamt about christmas and music. Weird, I know but it was so real. I also realized that I was thinking of "my twins" when I woke up. I woke up rubbing my belly even though I was still half asleep. I caught myself and thought, hm, how strange.
So since the transfer, Aaron has been so sweet and so devoted to me. I think seeing the 2 little ones on the screen gave him a sense of reality. I think he is very excited about it! He told his brother and shared how he might be a father. Every night before we go to sleep he says goodnight to my belly. He asks me everyday how the "chicos" are doing. I say "I don't know." He says" Growing?" I say, "hopefully." That is the routine now. So now I feel the pressure to make him happy too. I know he is hopeful and excited and I SO want to make him happy by being pregnant. I don't want to let him down, kwim?
So for the sake of me and their daddy, EMBIES: Please be growing inside of me!!! Please be attached really really tight in my womb.

So we put our Christmas tree up last night. It looks beautiful. I wanted to do traditional colors, red and green. I bought a gorgeous tree skirt last year in the ball the day after Christmas on sale! Its red and green so I went and bought some ornaments at Target. Surprisingly, there aren't many traditional green ornaments. I have plenty of red ones but I only have about 6 green ones on the tree. There is this trendy green going around that looks to pukey for me.
Hopefully, our cat, Toni is staying away from the tree. He was so excited to climb it and pull it that I went and bought a water gun so Aaron could shoot him everytime he got near it. He did and Toni took off leaving dust behind!!! Hopefully, he learned his lesson.
This weekend we are doing nothing. I don't have plans for tomorrow so I will probably just clean and lay around. We haven't done any Christmas shopping but Aaron likes to go with me so I will have to wait on him.

Well I guess that is some venting there... I feel a little better. :)