I am responding a bit faster than last time. I have about 10 follies on each side measure >10mm. The biggest one so far is at 12. I start my microdose ovidrel tonight and nurse said I will probably decrease my follistim tonight. That was fast! I am sure my E2 will be high as I've already started to have EWCM. I am pleased but I am a bit afraid of overstimming. And I certainly don't want to stim too fast.

The clinic had many people today. I guess that has to do with the later appt. The same thing again though, nobody speaks to nobody. Oh, except this one woman in the lab! She had an older son (about 10 yrs old) and I had seen upstairs at the doctors then I saw her at the lab. When she was walking back she commented on my blouse. How sweet! I felt good not because of my blouse but because somebody actually SPOKE! hehe
Maybe I should make it a point to start conversations although I am shy around new people. I just hate the silence.

I've been having headaches all along but right now I had one that lasted all night last night and all morning. Ugh... Tylenol does not cut it and thats all I am allowed to take. Grrr...

Yesterday I felt gross. I swear if I could had jumped out of my own skin I would had done it. I felt overwhelmed, tired, gross, crampy, pissy, etc.
I had a mini breakdown coming home. Then I realized I had forgotten my meds under my desk (microdose ovidrel). I would had left it but it needs to be refrigerated so I had to drive back. Ugh. Then I finally get home. Aaron did manage to get a HUGE smile out of me since he worked on our garden. It looked so good that it made my day.
I was planning to stay home but instead we went to the prayer service at church. I needed it and as I sat there in the dark (lights are turned down) I began to cry and cry. It felt so good and I just let it all out. When we left I was glad that I had came. I needed some release and I got it. I needed some peace and I felt it.

This is easy in some ways (ivf) but in some ways its hard. One day I say that I can do this 20 times if I have to but other days I say "this is it for me, I can't handle this again". I just hope and hope with all my heart that this works and that I give birth. I am so ready to finish this journey.

Only one week and a half to go!