I JUST woke up. It's 1:05pm. I woke up because Aaron was calling.
I hate this day. I thank God for my mom, I do. BUT this day revolves around women who have children. If it's not enough to always feel left out at parties, get togethers, and other social events because all women talk about are their children, then imagine THIS DAY.

I just got a call though from my cousin who is a bit older than me. She is now divorced but was married to her dh for about 10 years. They tried and tried to have a baby and never conceived. They did several IUI's (his sperm was fine) but all were negative. She has endometroisis. Anyway, she called me asking me how I was. She said we had something in common today. She cried. I cried. And I thanked her for calling me. It meant the WORLD to me. I feel so special. Somebody UNDERSTOOD my pain. I just wanted to reach through that phone and hug her. Such a sad reason to feel so close to a loved one. But hey, it's nice to know you aren't alone.. when you feel that you are.

Sooo I feel like saying SCREW IT. Here it goes. I once was a mom you know! :

Happy Mother's day to ME.... You would had been the best mom. You loved baby more than anything. You would had fed him, dressed him, bathed him, comforted him, provided for him. You would had cuddled him, went jogging with him, took him sight seeing, and never regretting your choice of becoming a mother.