Sooo I was so happy my last post that I had to update. How did I believe that everything would go perfect?? GRR... So I went to pick up my Lupron from CVS. The girl looks through the boxes and then looks through other stuff. Can't find it. Then she finds a little slip and says it's not approved by my insurance. HUH? SOoo then the old hag lady says "What's it for?" *embarrased because there is a line of people.. like they would know what Lupron is for.. but still* I said "Lupron". She says, "OH". OMG. I just rolled my eyes. Yes, make me feel like a freak!! OH. Soo then the hag calls me over to her side and asks if I had it mail ordered. I say "yes, but I changed it because they were delivering too late" She says, "well they still have it showing on theirs therefore the insurance won't cover it". NOOOOOO! She asks, "I can see how much it costs" LOL is she kidding me??????????? Lupron kits is OVER $1000!!! I was like "Um, no thanks, its is very expensive." So I left and called my RX insurance people.. MEDCO. Well loooooong story short, I was misinformed from the beginning. I had been told that my drugs would be shipped out on the 24th and delivered on the 31st. Well that is wrong. My drugs are specialty drugs (again, I am a special freak... OH) and therefore they will call ME to schedule my delivery and its usually a day or 2. GRRRR. I had to talk to the main office in Ohio and they were super nice and apologized. Sooo she told me that she would put in an urgent request for the Lupron (since I need those by Tuesday night for my appt on Wednesday) and the other drugs would be coming later... So that was fine.
Well they called me later on and of course, I didn't hear my phone go off. Whatever. I was in waiting at The Cheesecake Factory (YUM by the way) and by then it was way too late. Waaaa! SO I left them a message.
I called them this morning though and got it set up. My Lupron should get here tomorrow morning. YAY.
Oh and the new lady told me I was responsible for $6!!! The other lady said it was $40 (which is nothing anyway but $6????) So I was happier with her news!!!


I was talking to Aaron yesterday since I found out about 2 girls being PG. One of them is unmarried and this is her 2nd baby. She now has 2 baby's daddies. The 2nd one is like 20 years old and I guess her parents married her with her young teen boyfriend. It truly makes me question all this and it pisses me off. I have to remember though, that God gave us a freewill. Stuff happens. Infertility happens. PG happens. Yes, children are a blessing but how can God give a gift so fragile such as a baby to crackheads or prostitutes? Or unmarried people who probably didn't want a baby in the first place??? Freewill. Thats the only explanation I can think of. God will turn the bad into good for you. These babies come from a stupid decision their parents made but for the sake of the innocent baby, I believe God can turn it into good.
So Aaron started saying how our kids will be blessed. He says this has made me into a better potential mother. He said that we know our children were planned (you can't get more scheduled then cycle days and shots that have to BE given at 1 AM!!!) and that when we look at them we will be happy. I told him yes, I agree. I told him about the thread on FF that SusanP started about the positive things of Infertility and what I put. I told him that I have been blessed to wait for my baby with anticipation and how I will never take them for granted. I won't have regrets as maybe I would had if I would have gotten pregnant at the age of 22 or whatever. When my baby is born I won't feel like my life was cut short or like I missed out. I won't feel like I should have waited or whatever. I also told him that I feel like maybe he would have had regrets if we would have had kids early on. Aaron is younger than me so I always had that bother me. I didn't want him to feel like he was too young to be a dad. I mentioned how I KNOW that HE KNOWS what he is getting himself into. I said "every shot you stick in me, you know exactly whats its for". He said "That's right!" So we are in this together. We are going to be parents! We are going to be mom and dad. (sounds weird lol) We are going to be a family. I am not going to be a single mom, he won't be a single dad. I will not be a step mother. We will have our kids that we decided to bring into this world. This is where my freewill is GOOD. I can do that!