So what the hell? Lets post again today.

Ugh, I am going CRAZY. I can't believe I am obsessing so much. I took an hpt today to see if trigger was out, IT WAS. Wow, so if I see a line sometime soon its real. I don't plan to test too early though. Last time I tested at 7,8,and 9 dpo and on 9 dpo (4dp5dt) I got my light bfp. Every pregnancy is different so I don't want to stress out if I don't get a line on 9 dpo this time. Afterall, that is VERY early to get a bfp from what I hear so I was pretty lucky to get lines that early on. So for the sake of not comparing, I want to wait until 11 dpo. How I wish I could wait for beta but I can't! I know I can't!

I've been having little twinges down there. But who wouldn't when their ovaries were just deflated. I've been getting af cramps but I checked on my chart that I started getting af cramps right before transfer. Sooo it can't be pg plus its waaaay to early to feel anything IMO. I remember when I was pg that I told myself I didn't have any symptoms until after beta. That means, I didn't have any early signs telling me I was pg. The only thing that told me I was pg was that hpt. Then I remember after beta I got the fatigue and boobs, well boobs hurt BEFORE egg retrieval.
*sigh* Basically I'm screwed. There is no way to tell. I minus well just wait it out. The progesterone makes me feel all kinds of PG but again, I made sure to mark my chart when I felt af cramps etc that way I wouldn't get all happy thinking it was a pg symptom.

AAAAHH!! I just want to go to sleep and wake up on Wed...