Tomorrow is baseline! Yipeee! Finally have a date with the dildo cam. Thats when you know things are progressing. lol
I should start stims on Saturday which is also Aaron's birthday. We will be going to dinner and possibly a wedding depending if we get out of dinner early and how I feel.
Then on Sunday we are planning a barbeque for him. It should be fun and make time pass by fast.

So I am looking at the calendar and lo and behold tomorrow I will be 2 weeks from estimated egg retrieval. That makes me go in panick attack mode. Seriously, I feel my heart beating faster and faster. I don't think alot about ivf this time around although I am on FF obsessing but in my mind I am not thinking about it too much. I am just going along with it. I think I've built myself a wall to protect me and that wall is working. I feel good and stress free this time around.
The problem is when I stop to really think about it (like looking at the calendar). Then I start to freak out. So maybe I just need to put away all calendars.

I hope I pass tomorrow. Last time I was terrified of cysts but this time I am more calm about it. I am sure it will be fine. I am ready!



ETA: Oops! Forgot to update that YES, I got AF! She arrived on Monday night (well her cousin Spot did) after BDing. It did the trick! Go Aaron! By morning time she was here in full mode. I am now on cd3.
I was freaking out about that though so I take it back that I haven't been obssesive because I was. I was trying to play out all possible scenarios in my head but luckily she arrived.