Ooh why can't this just be calming and relaxing? Why do I wish I could wake up in 8 months. I hate this wait.

I'm worried. I mean, I'm happy and trying to enjoy at least this moment but I do get scared. I wonder if this pregnancy is sticking around. And all the damn stories (and my own story actually from last pregnancy) are frightening.

I started PIO again. When I got my first beta my progesterone was 12.5. Dr. said it was fine and that he wants over 10. But I know that it it should be higher. I started PIO on Tuesday night and then went in for bloodwork at noon on Wednesday. Well the progesterone results, for some reason, didn't come back with my beta#2 results. So I kept going with my PIO and called the Dr. yesterday to retrieve my results. Well turns out that my progesterone is now 36.5!!! Last pregnancy, the highest it got was 20 and that was weeks worth of PIO. I don't think this had anything to do with PIO unless 1 shot made that much of a difference. So honestly that made me really happy. I asked the nurse "wow, from 12.5 to 36.5 in just 2 days???" She said "yes ma'm, if you took your beta again it'd be way up there". (nurse, please.. I KNOW THAT... duh) I said "well yeah I knew that about my beta but didn't know the progesterone could jump up that high so fast."

So far so good. :) I just hope all goes well next Thursday at my u/s.

Symptoms: well definately the boobs are so sore!! I've had bad af type of cramps lately, cramps that scare me because they're so intense. I felt a bit sick yesterday as if I were seasick. Not sure if that was m/s or not but I'm super early so I'm going to blame it on all the junk I've been eating lately (which I need to STOP).

Other than that, I'm still in shock as is my hub. He can't believe it actually happened. He says he thinks about it and just is amazed. I on the other hand just pray alot. I pray for baby. I pray for me. I pray that all goes well. I'll get happy one moment but then I get doubt. So I'm really just not letting myself get too happy. So sad but you have to do what you have to do to make it.

I've been laying low as much as possible too. My mom and dh are both very over protective which is fine.. because I'm definately milking it!!! :D

Tick tock tick tock.... 8 months go by fast!!!